The Pain

Updated: Jan 25, 2019

The pain 


There's pain in what I'm feeling

 

I love, I feel real love in something so unrevealing 


A feeling so unrehearsed, however so perverse


I'm sorry that I'm not sorry , even though it's all falling apart


My heart is breaking , slowly , piece by piece  


Minute by minute 


Causing me to seize 


But nothing , rather ,  no one ...you -


Was there for me . 


You walk away when I need you most , 


Your back Is turned when I begged you close 


My eyes are hidden because they are swollen  , my heart has shriveled 


Because you are so cold with in 


Or is it , possibly me , maybe .


I love so deeply, to the core of my soul 


That I feel nothing but pain , so I hide so freely 


Behind such large teeth , and  define dimples


Where the truth of my broken heart you shall not see because I'm too afraid you will leave me 


I am more of coward that I can't leave a man, 


A man who clearly doesn't feel for me In return ,,


In return, there's a separation that's lies heavily between us


Where I am I and you are you and when we are we 


You are inside of me .. And even then , that is , all that that is 


And I lie broken, broken down .. Trying to gather the pieces of my heart of my soul , of my fucking sanity 


For I was once a victim , who lost her battles 


And regain her victory .. Of self love 


The pain 


The pain that I felt when a stranger forces his way into your soul , and steals your dignity, your rights and


values as a women.. There's real pain 


There is real pain , in the loss of yourself 


There's true mourning 


And when you regained your own life, and love 


And give it to man who shows you his back


There's pain. 


X E.marie

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