Updated: Jan 25, 2019
Dear mind heart and all in part ..
Help me understand brain ..!
What is an individual who's lost in her mind
Thoughts taking over , dark clouds no more sunshine
Depths to her core , there's only pain and sadness
Surface , you would think madness
But she smiles , spreading comfort
Holding back her tears
Queen of teeth clenching
All it is , is discomfort
Back forth with herself causing deep tension
Bruised soul who loves so whole heartedly
Chained up , bombarded with false promises
I , have been through the dirt
But you would never know
I, want to scream because I have deeply hurt
I , have fallen to my knees .. again and again
Trying to find a mense
A way out , a way to forgive
When all I want is to disappear
You help me see things clear
God dammit I'm so fucking tired of crying
Drowning ... man
Where the fuck is that horizon
With the silver lining ,?!
It must all be in my mind then
Because surly I'm going blind man ..
I see none of it .. balls of hope ..?
It's all garbage and ..
fuck all of it xx I'm hurt
And nobody can tell me nothing
This is of my own truths
fuck I'll choose to be cool but know
That I'm screaming fuck you and you 🖕🏾